My Kid is MARSHING my MELLOW!!

Yesterday I told my kid that I wouldn't be coming home from work until after 10pm. I started at 7:30am. As soon as I got in through the door he started to scream obsenities at me about how there was no laundry detergent left and how irresponsible I was.

As for me, when I go to get a bottle of laundry detergent from the garage I check to see if I need to purchase any. My son, however, gets the detergent from the garage and grabs the last one and doesn't say a word, so when he went to go and get a bottle last night to do his laundry there wasn't any left and he could not wash his clothes and of course, that is my fault because I am so irresponsible.

My son has mostly never needed for anything because of the wonderful store known as Costco. He has always had toilet paper, tooth paste, shampoo, soap, etc...basically all of his necessities are well taken care of and we usually don't run out of anything.

Anyway, as soon as I walked in the door at 10:30pm, he verbally attacks me and starts screaming obsenities at me. He says, "I would fucking like you to fucking know that I could not do my fucking laundry because of you. I could not fucking wash my fucking clothes because you are so fucking irresponsibe.". I replied, "That's nice! It is not my problem right now."

Let me see, when someone verbally attacks me at 10:30pm after a long and hard day's work the minute I open up the door, mind you, he stands at the front door and I know he can hear me trying to open up the door, but he doesn't even open it up for me and the second I walk in he just starts screaming at me, how am I to reply back?

My son disrespects me all the time. He is 17 years old and soon to be 18. I want him to go and live with his father after he graduates from high school. I am sick and tired of him and his stinking attitude. He is out of control. He is rude. He is a MONSTER! I don't know when it happened, but it is very disturbing to watch.

I feel that I try to do things for him, but he takes advantage of me and has no appreciation for what I do for him. He takes everyone for granted. He wants me to be at his beck and call and I refuse to be. He needs to have respect for other people's time, but he doesn't.

He thinks that respect only goes one way. He expects me to repsect him at all times no matter how unreasonbable he is because he is just a kid and is not responsible for how he behaves. And because it isn't his fault, it is my fault because I am the one who makes him mad and he is not to be at fault at all for anything does because I caused it. Really reasonable, isn't he! I am so charmed by him! :(

I feel that he is a like a oxymoron because he wants us to allow him to do things like an adult and for us to treat him like an adult, but when he loses control, it is not his fault, it is our's becaus he is a kid. If you want to do things and be treated like an adult, you have to act and take the responsibility of one you can't have your cake and eat it too.

He breaks things in our house all the time out of anger. He doesn't feel it is his fault at all because "I" make him angry. Therefore, he thinks and feels that he has absolution from any damaging actions caused by this "chain reaction of out of control emotional outbursts" that was caused by me. Yeah, makes sense to me [read: WTF???]

Okay, that is enough venting for now. I need to do some yoga breathing and meditation when I get home later to calm my nerves. If I don't release the stress by venting through my Blackberry, I will explode!! I am releasing the demons inside by blogging. I need to in order to keep my sanity. God bless us all!