My Rant and Rave for the day...

Feeling a slight bit pissy today because I have a co worker who feels entitled to my hours at work instead of me having them and she has the nerve to tells me to my face that she should have had my hours instead of me and she wants to know how I got the hours instead of her. Let me see, um I have been working at my job for 17 years now and she doesn't even have 10 years under her belt yet...meaning I have more seniority than she does. Um, also, there is the FACT that I don't beg for work and then accept work hours and then turn around and gives them back saying that something else came up or that she has something else to do (like another job that pays more). I also don't leave my job early making the person that I work with stay longer than me. I don't try to move other workers around so I get a better schedule than everyone else and I don't expect my bosses to pull other people out of their jobs so I benefit. I don't take advantage of my bosses by trying to get out of work early and still get paid.

I am sick and tired of this person and her self-centered and selfish ways, the more I get to know her the more I realize that she is a "USER". Everything is ALWAYS about her and her life and if I even TRY to talk to her about anything that she doesn't want to talk about she just tells me straight out that she doesn't want to hear about it and doesn't want to talk about it. Nevermind that I sit patiently and listen to her when she talks about her life.

She always puts herself first and she is rude to people and very condescending when she speaks to other people whom she feels is beneath her. She thinks of herself as an uptown girl, but is only a wannabe because I know that she came up in the ghetto. She fronts and she acts like she had money and is better than everyone else.

I have come to realize that she is dishonest and hides behind lies all the time, but claims to be this religious person just because her parents are involved in the church. I feel that I need to distance myself from her because she is NOT the kind of person that I want to be around or to be a close friend of mine. She is judgemental and coniving.

I think when I lived at my parent's house I needed the distraction and getting wrapped up in her life kinda gave me a chance to get away from my own problems and gave me time away from everything mentally.

Anyway, she is about to get married soon after a whirlwind 5 months of dating and really, I just don't feel like going to her wedding. I know she is excited and all, but I just don't care and I don't really want to get all wrapped up in her life. I would like my life to be ALL ABOUT ME for a change.

Part of what bugs me about her is that she has her nerve to only call me when her boyfriend is out of town and she doesn't feel like going to her sister's house, then she calls and wants to hang out. Why doesn't she call me when her boyfriend is in town? That pisses me off that I am treated as some sort of last resort kind of thing that she can just call up because she has nothing better to do.

I am also pissy about the fact that she tells people that she thinks I am a lesbian now because I volunteered at the Long Beach, CA Gay Pride Festival and I hang around with gay and lesbian people. I didn't realize that makes me gay too! Why spread rumors about me thinking that I am a lesbian now? Why not ask the source? I would have told her that I am NOT a lesbian and just because one of my best friends is a lesbian doesn't make me one too. I am secure enough with myself and my sexuality that hanging out with gay people doesn't make me gay too!

This person doesn't know that I know about all this stuff. I am finding out all these things and I am NOT a happy camper. She should have talked to me and asked me questions instead of talking about me and behind my back and assuming things about me and opening her fucking big ass mouth saying things about me!!.

Well, this is all the stuff pisses me off.