I need to get my 18 (going on 2) out of my life uintiil he can treat me 1/2 way decent. I ask him not to leave his dishes in the sink and to wash them after he is done eating. He refuses. He takes things out, he uses them, then he doesn't want to put them back where where he got it from. Tells me if I want if back where it belongs to stop being a nag and so fucking lazy to put it back myself and shut the fuck up.
He thinks that I am his personal slave. He swears at me. He calls me names. He threatens to punch my face in because I refuse to do what he tells me to do and then has his nerve to tell me it that it is my fault and that he HAS to threaten me because I need to be put in my place and respect him because I am so fucking stubborn and I won't listen to him. He needs to teach me a lesson in respect according to him and his twisted mind.
He is 18 years old, failing classes in high school, won't show me his report cards (because he is a man and doesn't need to be babied by me and it is none of my business since he is 18), refuses to get a job, refuses to let me know where he is going out to, won't respect me, and tells me how much he wishes he could kill me and how anxious he is to do so if I make one false move.
I am at my wits end with him. I don't know how to help him. My goal as of this point is to just get him graduate from high school then throw him out into the "real world" and give him a taste of reality tv first hand. I guess tough love is the only thing left for him to come to grips with. Life is too easy for him, he has no appreciation.
Father God in heaven above, I surrender to you Lord. I give you this blessed child of your's to guide. I place him in your loving and caring hands to guide his wayward behavior. He is not a bad child, he is just a lost sheep. Please Lord, I ask that you bring this wayward sheep back to your flock.
I place the likeness of him with you God, for I feel I have failed this human child who feels unloved by everyone and abandoned. I give this child to you to help, because he feels he has the God-given right to have a sense of entitlement and hatred so deep. I ask that you save this child who says he doesn't believe in you Lord. I pray for his soul. I pray and ask that you guide him back to becoming a loving a peaceful person.
Lord, I don't know how much time I have left here on this earth, because he says he wants to kill me all the time and wishes that I were dead. I fear for my life Lord. It is such a shame to be afraid of one's own flesh and blood. He plans to exact his pound of flesh from me.
Father, I know my friends worry about me and my safety all the time, please put their minds at ease. I tell them that I am okay, that is an outright lie Father. I feel like a battered wife, except it is my own child who is battering me. Lord, he says he just "says" these things in anger when I won't do what he tells me to do, but to me Dear Lord, it goes much deeper than that.
I pray for my safety, my sanity, my health, and my life Dear Lord. Pleaser guide me through this trying time in my life. Please watch over my child, because no matter what he says or does to me, I still love him....UNCONDITIONALLY Lord.
Amen
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