Having a rough time with my awful teenager...needing to vent!

Sick and tired of him saying, "fuck you bitch!" to me. Just because he doesn't get his way, he uses profanity towards me.

I am a good person, I know I am, but deep in my heart I feel like I hate my own kid. I just wish he was never born. That is the feeling I have. I truly regret giving birth to him.

He threatens me with physical violence. He calls me a fucking bitch, a fucking slut, a fucking whore, a stupid bitch, a stupid asshole, a fucking piece of shit, and other things I can't think of at the moment.

He demands that he be allowed to drive wherever he wants, whenever he wants. He believes I should pay for all his stuff. His car insurance, his gas, give him spending money, and shut up and stay out of his life. He doesn't have a job. He is disrepsectful to everyone in our house and around us.

I just wish he would leave and go live with his father. I can't stand him either. My son hates me because he believes I should have been with his father because his father has told him that I ruined HIS family and this was all my fault.

His father was and still is just as abusive as he is. That is the reason I left that man in the first place. He called me names and was physically abusive. I was smart enough to leave that man, but my son ended up just like his father, a REAL ASSHOLE!!!!

I am tired of this life. I am tired of my kid. I am sickened by it all. I can't wait to get away from everyone! Just wait, when I leave and move out, I will NOT take my kid back in to live with me. He is going to have to live with his dad because I can't stand him, nor will I put up with him anymore!

God,

Please Bless Me, Please Watch Over Me and My Loved Ones! God, please, please help me through this difficult time. Give me the strength to endure my difficult child. Please help him to find the error of his ways. Please guide me and lead me to a path that is fruitful and delightful. Please help me to not do anything rash! Please God, I ask these things of you. In Jesus name, I pray, Amen!