Feeling the stress...it is killing me...

I am feeling frustrated and irritated today. It has been a long week for me and it is only Thursday. I need to release some of my stress before I crack! I need people to pray for me...my child (A.K.A. Demon Seed Child) is making me crazy! I think something is wrong with him...I think that he is emotionally unstable and becoming a danger to me. He pushed me down today, broke a table, broke the remote control, and slapped my hand so hard with my cup in it that it spilled all over me. I tried to get up and get away from him, but he would not let me out of the room and kept shoving me back and in order to get him away from me I had to slap him in the face as hard as I could and keep hitting him and pushing him back off of me because he is almost 6'0" and I am only 5'6".

He is emotionally and verbally abusive towards me. I am tired of all his b*llsh*t!!! He threatens to move out of the "f-ing house" as he puts it the day he turns 18! I said, "Go ahead!" He thinks that he can afford to move out of the house and that he and his friends are going to go and get an apartment together and all will be well.

He thinks that I don't even do anything for him anymore...I have just had enough of this child and am ready to just throw in the towel.

One of my friends thinks that my son just might get angry enough to kill me, and I feel that if he does, then I am ready to go to meet my maker, cuz anything had to be better this this kind of abuse from a person like this...I am tired...Budda, please help me and guide me and teach me patience and tollerance.